Blind faith

Faith is to hope for things which are not seen, but which are true (Heb. 11:1; Alma 32:21), and must be centered in Jesus Christ in order to produce salvation. To have faith is to have confidence in something or someone. The Lord has revealed Himself and His perfect character, possessing in their fullness all the attributes of love, knowledge, justice, mercy, unchangeableness, power, and every other needful thing, so as to enable the mind of man to place confidence in Him without reservation.

All faith is blind to the eye. However not to the heart. Some times in life we are to see things with our heart...  or I suppose we are to feel with our hearts.  It is my nature to want to know the purpose of everything to ask "WHY" That is when I am reminded to let go of myself and trust in Gods purposes.

Through my life I have always been sick. At times it is discouraging. However the phrase "sufficiently healthy" is beginning to mean a lot to me. Sufficient meaning "It is enough"

Not a day passes that I am not in pain, but I know that what I am feeling is something my best friend Jesus Christ once felt. I have no choice but to push through and keep moving forward. Well I have a choice. One being I could give up and lay in bed all day or the other. Push through. Either way my body is going to hurt. So I choose to push through. It is what we do. And I say we meaning me and My Savior. We together move forward in faith.  When I am not strong enough to stand on my own He is my crutch, when I find my way to my feet He is at my side cheering me on.

It has been extremely incredible to see as I pray and plead with My Father in heaven to assist me with the strength I need each day to perform His work I am blessed. Through the morning as I prepare to get to serving it seems as though it might be impossible. I pray my way through studies and the minute my feet hit the pavement the pain doesn't always go, however I feel strong enough to get over it.

We all at some point or another suffer. Through my faith in Jesus Christ atonement I know that someday this body of mine will be perfected. That this pain is only something temporary. Through Christ atonement I know that I could be healed if it is Gods will.

In the last ten months I have been to doctor after doctor telling me what they "THINK" could be wrong. Almost every test under the sun has been done on my body and yet there is no solution. Some times there is no solution to our problems, all we can do is pick up where we are and move forward. Move forward in faith. My favorite quote right now is:

 "Be of good cheer. The future is as bright as your faith.

 -President Thomas S Monson

 We are all a little broken, whether it be health conditions, mental health physical health or emotional, we might be spiritually broken, or emotionally broken. It is time to let the great physician our Savior step in, to fix that which you cannot fix alone.

I am to a point where I need to align Gods will and my will. To make them become one. Rather than asking "why me?" I am learning to ask "What can I learn?" I am learning that trials will make us or break us. Am I going to become bitter or better? I may not ever become whole physically in this life time but I am learning to rely on my savior through these times because of that I am becoming whole spiritually.  

How bright is your faith?

"Righteousness and faith certainly are instrumental in moving mountains—if moving mountains accomplishes God’s purposes and is in accordance with His will. Righteousness and faith certainly are instrumental in healing the sick, deaf, or lame—if such healing accomplishes God’s purposes and is in accordance with His will. Thus, even with strong faith, many mountains will not be moved. And not all of the sick and infirm will be healed. If all opposition were curtailed, if all maladies were removed, then the primary purposes of the Father’s plan would be frustrated."

 -Elder Bednar That we might not shrink  (This talk has changed my life)

We all at some point have the faith it takes to move a mountain, however it's not always Gods timing or will to have that mountain moved.

Can you walk to walk or just talk the talk?

The very first night in the MTC I knelt in prayer. I promised my Heavenly Father I was in this mission for the full 18 months. That I WOULD NOT GIVE UP. I prayed to have my faith strengthened and I asked to be humbled.

Shortly after that old health problems began to resurface, with a vengeance. At first I was confused. I was frustrated. All I wanted to do is serve God with all of my heart might and mind and I was being slowed down. Such is life. I might want that new Jeep Liberty when I get home from my mission or the job at a perfect salon, however timing is everything. We can always get what we want when we want it.

So what has this crucial lesson inflicted by physical infirmities taught m?

It has taught me that no matter how hard my life gets to NEVER QUIT, NEVER BACK DOWN, AND NEVER GIVE UP. It has taught me that Christ heals all wounds. Not matter how deep. It might not be in the ways we expect but through Gods timing all wounds are healed. It has taught me that all things are possible according to my faith. Not my faith that tomorrow is going to be warmer than today. My faith in Jesus Christ. I know that I can be healed. I am becoming okay with the fact that my life may or may not be spent in days of pain. Each day is different and some days are easier than other. Every day isn't just possible, it is enjoyable.

Be grateful. FOR ALL THINGS. Yes even the hard things. Give a gratitude prayer. A prayer of thanks at the end of each day will teach you to see where the Lords hand guided you through. You will be shown His divine assistance and you will recognize it much quicker. It is a time for faith. A new brightness of hope, positivity and happiness. It is a time to start over new. Take the Lord by the hand and be guided into a bright future.